My husband died in 2012. We very close and good friends. In his hospital bed we would chat and laugh to the suprise of nurses. The day when the dark cloud fell, i was holding his hand and laughing with him as usual, he suddenly stopped talking and was put on life support and few hours later he was gone.He was wrapped in a white cloth and was made to escort his body to the mortuary where he was thrown like a log. I was traumatized and have been struggling upto now the fear i underwent. A good friend of mine encouraged me strongly to remain firm and news of her death on 27.8.17 has made me to start over. How will i face this harsh reality. May God help me and take away this fear in me, its a very awful and akward experience .
Dear God, it's been 12 years since my mind began to get twisted due to bipolar disorder. I'm constantly depressed and many times and don't deal well with people, I hurt their feelings. The drugs I take are not effective and medicine says that bipolar disorder doesn't have a cure. But I do know that my savior Jesus can heal me and I pray for this every day, I do believe in His miracles.
We begin by acknowledging that Jesus is Lord, that we live in grace and that eternity awaits us. The enemies of peace are fear, shame and pain. All of these are dissolved by the redemptive Christ and his love. Even when we ask for this peace and don't feel it - it is there underpinning the whole of our being. Like a safety net beneath us, this peace that surpasses all understanding is a constant. It does not change, it cannot fail. It is wider and deeper than we can ever imagine.
Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
I know that trust is a big part of experiencing peace and that fear has no place in my life. Most of the things I worry about or dread don't even happen. So I'm declaring my trust in you. I'm releasing the reins of my life again and asking you to take control. I may need to pray this same prayer daily, but I'm tired of the frenzy of life that leaves my schedule and my thoughts without any margin. I need more of you, Lord, and less of me.