God took my painful past and used it for His Glory. Xenia it is my prayer that you would seek God, cry out to Him and ask Him to use you, your life and all the pain, loss and suffering and return Beauty for Ashes. I pray that the rest of your life will be lived according to His purpose, will and plan for your life unto His Glory and your joy and continued edification. May you be blessed to be a blessing unto the Glory of God and to the salvation of souls. May this word be your portion and manifested in your life:
My husband died in 2012. We very close and good friends. In his hospital bed we would chat and laugh to the suprise of nurses. The day when the dark cloud fell, i was holding his hand and laughing with him as usual, he suddenly stopped talking and was put on life support and few hours later he was gone.He was wrapped in a white cloth and was made to escort his body to the mortuary where he was thrown like a log. I was traumatized and have been struggling upto now the fear i underwent. A good friend of mine encouraged me strongly to remain firm and news of her death on 27.8.17 has made me to start over. How will i face this harsh reality. May God help me and take away this fear in me, its a very awful and akward experience .
We begin by acknowledging that Jesus is Lord, that we live in grace and that eternity awaits us. The enemies of peace are fear, shame and pain. All of these are dissolved by the redemptive Christ and his love. Even when we ask for this peace and don't feel it - it is there underpinning the whole of our being. Like a safety net beneath us, this peace that surpasses all understanding is a constant. It does not change, it cannot fail. It is wider and deeper than we can ever imagine.
I lost my father in 2013. We were very close, spoke almost everyday. I am not going to lie to you it wrecked me. I am also in my 50s. I don’t know if you have sisters or brother’s, but one day I started texting them what I call Dadisums…Just funny things he use to say like “It’s like catching lighting in a bag” and they would respond with other ones…It’s makes us laugh and remember him fondly…Takes some of the pain away, at least for us.And we know one one of us starts these round of texts it a way of telling the other person we are missing him today…
Even though severe pas ( parental alienation syndrome ) she was a loving caring Young woman that tried to rise above it never kept my granddaughter away from me. Un fortunately my other two children are fully engulfed in it. I have no comfort in greveing as a family with them I am all alone. My depression and anxiety and anger is all my own. If I try to reach out to them thier mother still calls my a narcissistic person looking for sympathy. She is evil by the way. My depression is real as any father has. Days are bad then worse
I know that trust is a big part of experiencing peace and that fear has no place in my life. Most of the things I worry about or dread don't even happen. So I'm declaring my trust in you. I'm releasing the reins of my life again and asking you to take control. I may need to pray this same prayer daily, but I'm tired of the frenzy of life that leaves my schedule and my thoughts without any margin. I need more of you, Lord, and less of me.